Lame n idiotic: March 2007

Friday, March 23, 2007

Haiz tis few wks wad 2 expect. Quite low morale. Heng got quite a no of wonderful specs n buddies in Lion coy go thru tis shit wif me. Rite? Haha. The worse of all is the strings of unlucky things tat happen...

Last wk i took my 2nd yr ippt test. The happy thing is i tyco tyco clear my standin board jump 2 gold std despite my jump nt quite accurate oso. 1 leg behind the other abit thus behind 234 but the neutral nvr say anithing. Hweva my 2.4 run later is 9.48. Missed by 4 s 2 my gold award. Wad a big disappointment! 4 s....

Den tis wk went outfield for tank trng. Everything was fine until i was movin frm 1 trngin area 2 another. @ tat time, 2 b tactical durin war, tank got 2 hug the corner(means stick close 2 the corner while turnin) so as 2 prevent exposin 2 much of the body 2 any ambushin unit near the corner. @ tat time, i was doin tat.

Suddenly the tank juz lost ctrl n drift 2 the right. Within sec the tank was stuck in a ditch n the left side of the tank sank in2 soft mud due 2 heavy rain. The right side of the tank is much higher than the left side. The veh was slanted more than 60 deg n i fear it might overturn anitime. I immediately called 4 help.

@ tat moment, i was reallii stunned. The incident realli happened too fast n there was not much time 4 me 2 react if the veh juz overturned. I wld b the 1st 2 fly out when the veh overturned. @ tat sec, my life is realli hangin by tat moment. There's alot of things unaccomplished, waitin 4 me 2 do. I realli 不甘心 2 die liddat. @ tat time, i was worried abt my driver n gunner. Wad if got anithing happen 2 them, hw m i goin 2 tell their parents. All tis qns n feelins keep runnin thru my mind while i was in the tank doin my tank overturnin drill while waitin 4 help...

Soon help came n slowly evacuated me n my crew. @ tat time i was still dazed while the rest was tryin 2 tow the tank out of the ditch. Haiz tat's the 2nd time i escaped frm tank almost overturn. In overseas trng, durin live firin, my tank lost ctrl n reverse dwn a steep slope on its own. Heng it stopped upon reachin the bottom of the slope. If the tank steered abit along the slope, the tank wld hav juz overturn throwin me out.

After an hr, the tank is towed out finally. Lookin @ the deep ditch n soft mud it was realli traumatisin. Haiz... The consolation of tis incident is tat the tank didnt throw tracks or else i wld hav 2 assemble the tracks b4 i can move the tank again. Everything was alright nothing went missing.

Till nw, i realli wondered my such luck will last until when. There will definitely b 1 day when i wont hav such luck 2 逢凶化吉. Tis reminds me of a fortune teller who told my parents tat tis yr my luck wont b gd n i muz b careful with my head. He predicted tat i may suffer a head injury tis time which might land me in coma. S my parents ask him abt hw 2 avoid, he juz tell them 2 leave everything 2 fate. Whoe noes i maybe a living example of the movie Final Destination...

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Morale low low low thou tis wk i cleared my icct in 1 try w/o being required 2 redo techniques. Despite of tis, performance is still deemed s "pathetic". Tis is nt the 1st time in which u put in efforts n yet unappreciated n sometimes worst get scolded unreasonably. On the other hand, if u did something wrong, irregardless 0f ure gd efforts, no second chance u will get punished severely.

In addition, when we wrk, we will wrk hard. When there's time 2 play we play hard. How can we mix the time 4 us 2 play wif wrk. If liddat will we ever giv ourselves 2 relax frm all the wrks. There muz b a distinct line between wrk n play @ certain situations. Imagine u bring a grp of ure cca students 2 Sentosa 4 some gathering. Hweva @ Sentosa, u made them go trainin 4 an incomin biathlon. Hw will they feel?

Haiz nxt wk my beginin of my so called 18th level of hell. I sometimes bcome veri sian liao. Frm nw on more things will b comin in. Just cant stop tikin abt them. Haiz i realli wrong time wrong place. Feel like givin up by dwngrade PES but cant bring myself 2 do it. Escapin away frm the prob is nt an option. Besides i will cause other pple 2 share my wrkload. Every1 alreadi got so much 2 do liao. By sharin mine they will hav even more 2 handle esp mingze n choon siang.

Nw plus the things mention @ the 1st paragraph realli make me less n less motivated.. Realli nothing 2 look 4ward 2 xcept 4 my every fri bkout. Ha if liddat i tik i got 2 attend counsellin liao... Haiz i m realli an incapable cmmder.