Lame n idiotic: 6 mths in army

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Veri fast 6 mths in army liao. Frm bmt 2 sispec nw 2 ATI, really get 2 noe alot of frens. N thru stress n diff situation i oso get 2 c other pple's true colour n mine s well. Quite amazed by hw some pple can realli b like.

4 me, sometimes i can cope well n wrk wif it. Sometimes, durin stress, i just let my temper get ahead of me n always end up being apologetic 4 nt toleratin.

6 mths my hokkien improves quite a bit but @ the xpense of my chi n eng. Hweva both my eng n chi still can make it. Vulgarities needless 2 say go super high esp in camp. All the colourful words nvr fail 2 come out frm my mouth in camp. Hopefully out of camp i will use less of them ba.

Multi-taskin plus decisive is a requirement 4 tank commander. Ha up till nw dun tik i m up 2 std yet. Always anything or s usual. All the "what if". Cant help myself n always end up tikin 2 much. Who noes after tis course, i may bcome a decisive commander in army but in my personal life, i fail 2 make impt decision 4 myself juz like now.

In some aspects i can do well n xcel while 4 some, i juz get stucked. Wan 2 do something abt it but end up dunno y nvr do anything or dunno wad 2 do. Dun wan 2 screw things up but always end screwin things up. All the self-reflection i hav n resolution i come up i nvr apply in2 my life...

Let history repeat itself again? Haiz when will i ever wake up? Or i juz continue runnin away frm it n 埋头苦干 in army everything juz happy go lucky.