Lame n idiotic: A sad wk

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Sigh tis few wks quite suay n jialat. Last wk took my nafa test. Tot that i can @ least get a silver. But in the end damn disappointed coz i failed the test bcoz of standin board jump while the rest results r gd. Mayb i too focus on trainin upper body n 4getin abt my legs. Bobian lar realli need 2 do calf raisers 2 train up 2 april nafa test. Wah yesterday, left wif 15min of gym duties, i go play bball wif hm n jm. In the end, baba saw n eventually scolded every1 includin ghim kui n andy who r nt on duty oso. Bcoz of my irresponsible behaviour, i coz every1 2 knock it dwn 20 n gk 40 n wasted their 1hr of time gettin lecture frm baba. wo zhen de heng guo yu bu qu ye heng dui bu qi ta men. S a shift in charge of gym duty i shld nt do tis n i feel realli guilty 4 it, draggin pple dwn wif mi n simply took my teacher's trust 4 granted. i realli ought 2 b punished. Realli sorri andy, gk n jiahua 4 it. Sigh.... every1 will hav a strong belief in something. However, even though u strongly believe in something, i realli tik tat opinions by others can realli affect u despite ure strong blief. It is like drinkin blended ice in an air con rm. U keep tellin ureself u can endure the coldness. However, ure body overcome ure mind n u start 2 tremble wif coldness even though u keep tellin ureself u can endure. I keep tellin myself nvm but i oso dunno y it still affects my xiang fa. Realli wtf! so suay alreadi yet i still encounter friendship prob wif 1 of my frens which is veri rare. Quite sometimes i realli tik i m in the wrong but sometimes i realli dunno wad the person wans. I realli try 2 give in 2 tat person n yet..aiya. Now i keep wonderin 2 myself wad friendship realli means n will minor things affect it? Pls giv mi some enlightenments. 3 days ago my ex employer called mi up n wen huo wo. she also told mi tat her new company lookin 4 part timer n asks whether i wan 2 come out on this thurs nite 2 discuss abt the job. on hearin tat, i was veri happi tat got a job 4 mi summore part time n i might b able 2 work once a wk. durin the past 6 mths, without job, i quite gu yu bu qu coz my mum n dad keep payin 4 my fone bills, internet n bus concession. Sumemore i had 2 hou zhe lian pi n ask 4 $$ if i wan 2 go out. if i hav wrk tis will nt happen liao. Howeva, my academic still like shit lor but i realli feel like takin tis job 4 a try 1st if it is possible. now i still dunno whether i shld meet her on thurs. Sigh... 2day oso my fault again. told mr lim joon ling 2 go philatelist museum 2day n in the end all the guys nt goin n i made him angry by nt informin him tat no 1 wan 2 go earlier. but heng last min some guys n gers r realli willin 2 help mi n we went. realli grateful tat they helped mi out but sorry 4 takin up ure time. luckily mr lim eventually 4giv mi or else i will feel realli veri bad wif wad happened yesterday n he even help us out 4 the ymca comp. Haiz.... realli dunno wad's wrong wif mi.