Lame n idiotic: Problems n problems

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Last few wks r really un4getable, alot of problems, damn pissed n frustrated. Durin this period, realli tik alot n reflect alot compared 2 norm times. Ever since sec sch n up till now, i realli dun even noe much abt myself n dun even noe wad i realli wan. Things like m i really tat optimistic n happy go lucky, m i a person who is confident of myself, do i hav self-esteem, do i spare a thought 4 others n lastly m i tikin 2 much or expectin 2 much will always appear on my mind when i do self reflection. No matter how hard i try, i realli cant giv myself a satisfactory ans. Inside mi now is realli total mess. Everything seems 2 b jumbled up. Dunno y i always self contradict just cant put an end 2 it. sumtime when i do sumthing, inside mi i dun realli intend 2 do it n inside mi things i want 2 do, but end up not doin it juz find xcuse n avoid. always end up doing things without tikin, just based on my instinct which most of the time is wrong. Up till now, there r quite a number of things tat i realli cant 4get n makes mi feel regretful up till now. haha pple always say failure can serve s a experience. 4 mi, xin hui yi lan or che ti si bai nan yi zhan qi lai le. Bside a happy future family, happy future career, alot of frens, i realli dunno wad i wan in my life liao or m i askin 4 2 much? heng ar along these yrs got buddies in sec sch like shuheng, kel, shengjie, dog 2 entertain n make my lives happi n meaningful even up till now. Oso hav a nice n supportive family.Now, even got a gd klass, gd ct, gd cca, gd frens. Realli grateful 2 alex, rich, jiaming, ghim kui, aaron, huifang, alvin 4 ure advices n words of encouragement tat really helps mi alot. Mayb these qns hav 2 b solved by myself eventually ba.